I'm sorry you are going through this difficult time. Perhaps you should seriously consider an alternate career path.

Life is too short to pass your days this way.

Ask yourself why you are still sticking with your job? Is there some part of you that loves it or is there anything bright to look forward to? Deep down inside, you know the answer.

Are there other people who are putting high hopes on you? Sorry to say that it is you who has to live your life, and not them. Explain to them the hell you have to go through each day. If they truly love you, they will understand.

Perhaps you could even remain in the medical career path, but maybe not as a doctor or surgeon. Perhaps you could work on a research path, a lecturing path or even a sales path.

Imagine yourself in one year, five years or even ten years. Imagine looking back at this moment. What advice would you give to yourself?

I feel your unhappiness. Each time you write a blog post, I can sense you getting more frustrated. 

@Adino - sigh...the ward i'm working at now.. the specialist and my bosses are all so unreasonable and demanding... the workload now i can handle already but i can't handle the people... i get scolded and blamed for everything, even though it's not my fault.. it's just sooooo depressing. I don't know if i should quit, so many times the thought came into my mind, but by the time i get home, i'm too tired to think and another day goes by. Sigh, what to do, life goes on.

@nancy - thanks... just sometimes it's so hard to go on... i hate the fact that i'm getting blamed for everything that goes wrong whether or not it's my fault... it's really bad.. i'm suffering from physical exhaustion and emotionally i'm so depressed. Just don't know what to do sometimes.. i feel like giving up everything.