Last Christmas wasn't very eventful. I remember having to take leave to have a day off on Christmas, a public holiday for everyone else automatically. I might have to take again this year, maybe I'll take leave on Christmas eve instead. I don't have much leave to begin with, and I'm not allowed to take more than 4 days consecutively even though I save all my leaves till the end of my posting. So I made a rough plan on how to take my leaves for the next 4 months, and figured, I will spare a day for either Christmas eve or New year's eve. Remembering last year I spent both the eves in the hospital, being on call on one of it, and wondering how's everyone else celebrating outside the hospital walls.

I don't have a wish list in material forms, maybe because I'm already capable of earning and saving to buy what I want. My wish list are more of non material things, like for full recovery of my aunt, good health for everyone in my family, academic excellence for my sister, faith and strength for myself, joy and love for my friends (and myself). Things that money can't really buy, things that need God to intervene and by His grace, it is given.

Something else that I've always wished for Christmas. To be able to celebrate it with the someone special in a romantic setting. Strolling hand in hand, with beautiful lit Christmas trees all around, a very peace and calm atmosphere, voices of carols in the background. A white Christmas would be even more romantic, but that doesn't happen in this country, isn't it. So I'll be realistic and scrap that part off. A Christmas without snow would be just fine.

Time goes by kinda fast. It seems like it's not too long ago we ushered into 2009. Now it's coming to an end. This year has been eventful. I had the good and I had the bad. I choose to believe that everything happens for a reason. I've got a feeling this year's Christmas would be a special one. Somehow. Maybe the cooling weather nowadays has a calming effect. I don't know.

Things aren't so bad at the present moment. Work's pretty ok despite the usual long hours, the department I'm in now is really cool, I must honestly say, I have not been in a department with so many nice superiors before. The specialists are all nice, the registrars are really really really nice (I would even have a crush on one of them, too bad he's not available anymore, just kidding), that's just to show how comfortable I am working with them, surprisingly almost all the MOs are nice and kind, and my colleagues... mostly helpful and nice as well. Yea, thanks to you too Felix, it's just weird to know that you read my blog, I often don't realise that until you suddenly mention something that I don't remember telling it to anyone related to you haha. I seriously don't mind the long hours and the heavy workload (it's not really heavy now actually, considering we have more than enough manpower), if the working environment is pleasant like this.

Other than work? Well, let's wait and see if it happens. If it does, I'll let you know. And until that happens, that's all for now. Signing off.

Wishing myself a good call tomorrow.

The time is here
The time is near
The time is now.

Putting the past behind, so don't question me anymore.
I had my reasons in almost everything I do.
If I could turn back time, I would have made the same move, same decision, and I guess it would not be any different from now.

So don't question me anymore, for I don't owe anyone any explanation.
I don't wish to answer to any whys or whats or hows, nor do I want to hear any judgmental comments.

I do not look forward to this, but neither am I going backwards.

Hospital TAR, Klang. In 4 days time.

I wouldn't say my life is dull. In between the black and the white, it was filled with a spectrum of other colours. These few months have been eventful. Experiences that money can't buy. Stepped out the box and realized there's a whole world out there, waiting to be discovered and experienced. I'm glad to say, I've learnt a lot, went through a lot, lost certain things, gained certain things. At times of despair, God has always interestingly provided me with a guardian angel. Truly thankful.

The wait is over. The question is answered. I'll be back on track, to where I belong best.

In a while more.